The Death of Perfect Mom

It wasn’t a quick death. There were times that it was a little painful, seeing her slip away…waste away… and knowing deep down that if I tried a little harder, I could revive her. Ultimately, her death was the only cure for the symptoms that were ailing her. Guilt because giving 100% at everything wasn’t enough. Stress because…

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Caleb: Months 7, 8, and 9

I’ve been horribly horrible at updating Caleb’s progress. Kids are total time suck! Who knew? It’s been crazy busy since school started back. Here’s a quick update of what nine months at home looks like: Caleb is almost 22 months old. Caleb is very mobile now. He is all over the place! And I mean…

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The Waiting Place

You can get so confused that you’ll start in to race down long and wiggled roads at a break-necking pace and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most usless place The Waiting Place… …for people just waiting. ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………… I was a soon-to-be graduating senior when I received the…

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A Little {Broken} Heart

A few weeks ago, I told you that my heart is broken. Broken for orphans everywhere. Not a day goes by that I don’t ache to do more. Give more. Be more for them. I want to also tell you about someone else whose heart is broken. His is broken in a much more literal…

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Let’s Talk About “Fair”

Fairness. Equality. Justice. These are not my favorite topics to discuss, mainly because these concepts are seldom brought up without involving trivial matters in our household. Our house. You couldn’t even pinpoint its exact location on a world map. The world is so very big and our family so very small, yet you’d sometimes think that…

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Heart {Broken}

Adoption has ruined so many things for me. There is a parking lot behind Lowe’s that I cannot pass without feeling a little pang of nostalgia mixed with elation mixed with sadness. It’s a terrible concoction because my body never knows whether to smile or cry. A few days after we accepted our referral for…

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Caleb: Month 5 (and 6!)

I’m late. So, so late. I know. And now here we are at almost the six month anniversary of our Gotcha Day in China. Doh. My mom recently asked me if I had stopped blogging.  I thought that with school starting, I’d miraculously have all this free time open up at least during naptime to…

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Caleb: Month Four

Tomorrow, we celebrate the fourth month of having Caleb home. At this time four months ago, Kevin, Caleb and I were sleeping, awaiting the buzz of an alarm clock in the wee hours of the morning that meant it was time to leave Guangzhou. I remember the relief I felt when the alarm went off….

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For the Love of Trapper Keepers

School supply shopping was the highlight of my upper elementary years. My heart would skip a beat at the prospect of brand new pencils, pens, and notebooks, but the  Trapper Keeper was the pièce de résistance of the entire school supply aisle. The actual attendance of school never ranked nearly as high. Ask my mom. I cried every…

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Caleb: Month Three

Ah, three months with us already! Our first two months with Caleb were filled with outings of necessity…grocery store, preschool, shuttling kids to various activities. Now that school is out, and Caleb is more secure with us, we’ve been able to do some fun, all day outings with the family. We recently traveled to Columbus…

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